I gotta a wine in my hand and two corndogs in my gut.

...and I sip and feel fine. Yeh, I feel fine.

I just got off my jog and I thought of you, my brother.

I just had what I consider a big event in my life happen. A possibility of a turning point in my life. Augs leaving me. Sure, not a total separation, but a hint of it, the foretelling of my future, a little insight of things to come. My time cone.

I thought of you, each of you. You have things in your lives, the center of your life for this moment and those moments to come.

Most obvious is Cliff, you gotta a few things on that plate, some of those major life changing things, where that time cone in front of you shifting all over. What opportunity for excitement and joy you have in that cone. New person in the family, that is, of course, one of the top 3 (arbitrarily chosen, but used to emphisize it's rank) life changing events any person can have. A new house and town, that's a biggie for changing the trajectory of life (maybe top 10). Talk about damn good luck on selling the house, you should really think about a short trip to Las Vegas real soon while you still have the groove going.

I now Archie is working at those same big changes in life. Looking for a new town and new job, like I said changes in the top 10. I understand you are thinking about making that more than just a top 10 move in the fact that you just might "settle down" which I think on an individual level that moves it to a top 5. Big changes. I know, and can emapthize with, the making a baby thing you are going through, I lived it. I have jerked off into my fair share of plastic bottles! On a more serious note I know the disappointments that come from such a great effort can really suck. The only advice I can give is to keep on jerking off into those bottles and to always keep in mind that it is impossible to go outside that time cone.

I thought of Chris's deal of the moment, on the surface it doesn't seem so big, but I say that is because it doesn't have the emotional quality of the other life changing events. Well, I guess I have to admit it probably isn't really very life changing, I would have to put it in the top 200 or 300. That does not keep it for it's value and importance to being in the moment. Being alive and what we are doing in our life should be at the top of is important in our lives. I am talking about all the work and effort in putting in your flooring. I have experienced that as well and can appriciate what it means to the moment and to your dreaming of what is contained in that time cone in front of you.

Well, I have gone off enough and really said nothing. I want to leave you with the knowledge that you are all in the time cone ahead of me, you are at the point of time that I am in right now as I am in the point with you while you are reading this.

I love you brother.

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